I miss the steady paycheck. Thats why it had to end.

If I'm being honest, the main reason I chose my company wasn't the money or the mission. It was the people. I was new to Denver and knew that if I found a good workplace I'd find my tribe. And I was right. Company parties, free food, endless snacks. The coffee wasn't great, but it felt nice knowing I saved $5 every morning.

I miss the paycheck. Do you realize how nice it is to receive a steady deposit every two weeks? Weekends are truly free. Evenings can be fully yours because you've already paid your time. 9-5, Monday through Friday. Done.

I miss the perks. Health insurance. Over a month of paid vacation. Nothing in the self-employed world touches that.

I miss not having to think once my time was complete.

I miss having a shared mission with almost 1000 other people. There for the paycheck, there to grow their careers, there for the social life, the snacks, and something bigger than themselves.

But here's the thing. I wasn't happy.

It worked for a while. Until it didn't. Until something in me begged me to listen. The same quiet voice from years before asking me to create something more than what I was handed.

Looking back, I'd already left my job before I even left.

Now I'm building my own community. Paying for my own healthcare. Finding my own snacks. Creating something from inside me the world hasn't seen yet. My evenings aren’t mine like they used to be, but the trade off is i get to build my whole schedule. Not just set times available to me. And the best part? I know why I’m doing it and that makes all the difference.

I'm not there yet. But I'm on the other side of the threshold now. Speaking in ways I've never spoken before. Unfiltered. From my heart.

The corporate world isn't bad. It just wasn't mine anymore. And I kept pretending it was because leaving felt too scary.

Here's my invitation. What would your life be like? Your relationships? Your work? If you stopped running from the fear and let it ride with you?

Just wonder.